"You tolerate too much. You need to think about yourself now. You can't keep hurting yourself like this"
Have you ever be in the state where you feel like everything you do is just not enough and you, yourself, just being you, is not enough?
That you feel like you're the mother of all devil
when they think that you're a saint.
So you twist and you turn,
denying whatever good remarks that were given
to you because you know yourself better
or perhaps the voices inside your head claim to know you better.
I've made a lot of damages to myself a few years before but last year, I started to know my self worth. I started to learn to love myself. It was roller coaster. it's not easy, up until now. Because there are days where it's only at the bottom and feels like it'll never go up. And I swear it was tiring. questioning my entire existence and all the images of grey paint splattered all over my head
Some days, I feel like a unicorn or narwhal. I feel like I am on top of the world and I am happy and it is okay to have feelings and it is okay to be me. it's okay. it's okay. it's okay. It's like I realize my worth and i know that I can do better than I did before.
Loving myself can be so hard sometimes.
I am so proud of myself, on how far I've traveled, to be this better. the struggles, the fights.
I still have a lot of things to learn about the outside.
hey, i really love myself tonight. and yes, i want to tell the whole world.
it feels so good
xx
