It bothers me seeing people around me competing "who's happier than who". Like it is some kind of a game and you're going to win a gold coated stupid medal that only exist in your world.
It makes me sick too.
why can't people strive for happiness for themselves, and only themselves? instead of nak tunjuk siapa lagi bahagia? why?
Why you nak compete? Just be happy without competing dengan orang lah? stop competing how happy you are with your ex, you friend, neighbor or idk anyone ? stop it. Just be happy for yourself. Stop competing. You're poisoning yourself. You're making a damage to yourself. I know you probably do that because the person you once loved, or cared, hurt you, so you want to take revenge, that you are happier without them or you just simply want to compete that you are happy and will be happier than they are.
I get it. I really get it. Because I was once in that situation. But here's the thing, I was not happy. Not genuinely happy (though I doubt that I am genuinely happy right now haha, but i hope u get what I'm trying to say). I didn't feel happy. In fact, I don't even know what I felt that time. lel.
So, now, let me tell you; be happy for you and only you. It's okay to feel angry, hurt, sad when people hurt you, left you. It's okay to feel things. SCREAM ALL YOU WANT. CRY ALL YOU WANT. LET IT ALL OUT. because we are humans. after you let those things out, ignore those who hurt you. they do not deserve to be in your head, they do not deserve to be worried, cared by you. no. remember that. forgive them and erase them, cut them out, but never ever forget what they did to you. instead, learn from it. so that you won't encounter the same thing in the future. and do not stop growing. grow. grow. grow.
until then.
ESOK !! 5 WEEKS CLEAN!!! !!!!! WHAT!!1!! CANT BELIEVE THIS!! KEEP ON FIGHTING AAAA!! (i know lah too early to post this BUT HEY!!!! hopefully tak relapse malam nanti lelz)
