mid-term exam is getting nearer and I am so nervous

Okay. To be honest, I am not okay at all at school. I don't like how I am trying too hard to fit in with everyone. I am tired and I can't find my old self back. Some people would be so glad that I can break the ice and make myself to get out of shell. But, what's the point when I am not feeling okay with myself and don't feel like myself at all?

I have mastered the art of walking alone at school when I was form 4 and I was contented with it. Because those who are with me when I was form 3 has moved to another school. I am okay with being alone at school when I was form 4 because as everyone knows, upper form life is busy and I think that having things sort out alone at school was okay for me and reach home to a call from the one you love and talking and laughing and sharing stories about school is well, the greatest that could ever happen to me, after a long tiring day. and you still do that. everyday. asking how i was doing at school. thank you :)

You know, there's nothing feels right than reuniting with the person you love after so long you haven't meet him. You get to tell stories and get to see that person is smiling and making you laugh till your stomach hurts so bad that you wanna ask him to stop instead you just keep on laughing because it feels so good. So good that you want to freeze the time. It feels so good that you wish that things could hold on a little bit more before you continue your school life. And so, I am looking forward to meet you.

It's not that I don't like having friends at school, maybe I just like the idea of wandering around at school alone without burdening people to follow me everywhere I go.

or maybe I just miss that someone to company wherever I go.
or maybe I miss that person
so much

I hate it when I fall asleep. I hate it that my body does not work as I want it to. I fall asleep too much

Stooooooooooooooop spreading negative vibes aina ew

may you always be guarded by the angels around you and may Allah ease everything you do and guide you when you are in confusion or difficulties, with His light. I hope you have a great day today and I hope the wind wipe your tears off when you are sad and kiss the tears away. I hope you smile everyday even when I am not there. Always remember that I am with you through thick and thin and I'll do my very best to help you and be beside you to go through this world together. Remember that I love you, always.

Thank you for being the ears to hear me when I am sad and to lend me your shoulder when I need one. Thank you for not giving up on me even when I am being so spoil and I promise that I'll try my very best to be the very best version of me.

Thank you. For everything. I couldn't ask for more xoxooxo :)))