3.47 a.m.

playlist #5

1. Hospital for Souls - BMTH
2. Lost and Far From Home- Katie Costello
3. Monster - Imagine Dragons
4. Disasterology- PTV
5. Sweet Child O' Mine- Guns N Roses

my feelings are not valid
they said i need to sort this thing out on my own bcs everyone is so selfish saving themselves and mind their own business. the truth is, i need someone no matter how many times I said that i dont need one. i am in pain right now. i hate to be alone with my thoughts. i tried to scream but no, they dont listen but they judge me. throwing cards saying that I dont pray hard enough, not good enough and that I am just being negative. i am tired. but i need to be independent right? so it is better to bottle up and feel miserable w my damn thoughts rather than open up with them. i am strong. not weak. not stupid. not naïve. i'll be better. i'll recover. no more relapse. i am independent and strong. things will be ok. 


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