you are worth it.

you are matter to me.

you are important to me.


& those promises are not fake.


I know well, what I feel

and those words I said was true

so as these

was it because i hold you so tight
that you ran out of air?
did I suffocate you
with 'i love you's and 'I miss you's?
and all you want to do is escape?

you never leave my head
no,
but you did,
was it because how messed up it was?
was it horrible to be in there?
did you feel trapped?
that you decided to force yourself to get out of my head


i love you and I really do
I am sorry for everything.

I screwed up
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Just so you know,
I made a +ve progress, getting out of my shell
I made friends and I talked with them
I met people, and said 'hello' to strangers
I no longer walk with my head down
and I thought, that maybe you're the first person who sees me
and meet me when I am truly out of my shell
the first one I told, "HEY look at me, I am outside!"

I need some time and I just want to be in my shell for awhile


It's all alright
Live your life the way you wanted it to be
Put me on the list of insignificant people

I truly deserve it.
a messed up I am. hurting myself. i should've known; who would ever want to be with person who is so broken and hurt herself and get nightmares almost every night?
again,
it's okay


take care wherever you are and whatever you are doing
I will always believe in you. Please don't have doubts on yourself.
You can do this. now, take care.
see you
x