"Kau ni mudah terhibur betul hm. Weh. Bukan apa, tapi nak tahu tak?" "apa dia?" "aku ada baca tau, mmm, orang yang mudah terhibur ni sebenarnya dalam diam dia sedih, rasa alone. Betul ke?"
Haro.
I. can. not. fathom. what. I. feel. right. now.
I had nightmares for almost 1 week now. All the memories when I was in high school came into my dreams. and so as other things. Brutal. Cruel. I must say. They came without any notice.
They keep on replaying in my head like someone push the repeat button and hid that button from me!!! and the voices of people I once knew was playing like a freaking broken record. The faces were floating around in my head. I miss everyone. I guess. But
It is not that I don't want to remember them. In fact I am really glad they were in my dreams. I just do not want to feel like I am stuck. Stuck in the past. Stuck when I was supposed to run. Stuck in the grey clouds when everyone else is running towards the Sun. Stuck.
Tapi, ada 2 or 3 dreams yang buat aku rasa... taknak keluar dari mimpi. I want to stay there for good. Sebab mimpi tu best sangat and I wish it would be that way when I wake up. but no.
But hey, dude, this is Aina. A new Aina (lel). I can make it. These things will go away eventually. I won't let this things make me feel like I am stuck, no more. Gotta keep on pushing myself.
But some days, now, I wish
well
nothing
I just wish that,
idk
things are different
so i guess I have to be ok with that even though I am not
not at all
Things will go on with or without me
The world will still revolve around the Sun even when I am gone
Because well
idk what else
whtever
