Thank you for always be there for me despite all the troubles that I've caused and how emotional and overly-attached I was/am.
We're getting farther and farther from each other :(
And by next year, you're going to United States miles away and the closest I can get to you is by skyping or well, most probably by googling the world map and stare at it on the screen of my laptop as if I am staring you, adoring you for hours haha. I would do that. So don't test me. haha
Strong is what we are whenever we are apart.
Thank you and I love you :3
How's my week? it was utter shit, But it will pass. Hopefully. So, it's okay. You, see, sometimes I hate myself for being like this. Emotional. Over-reacting when actually there was nothing wrong with it. But, still, I think it was shit.
I was at the verge of losing it all. Giving up. Cut the rope and float, aimlessly, without worrying of anything, But I didn't. You anchored me. You made me feel okay again. You brush off the wounds of my scraped knees and help me to get up again. You didn't judge. You didn't even bury me deeper and deeper just like my head did to me. Your voice calm me. Even though you're not here, I am glad that you called me.
And I was myself again. I should not give up. Never ever. Not in a million years should I give up. I have plans to catch and in order to catch them, I need to be succeeded with freaking flying colors and prove people wrong about me. I have so many plans ahead of me, so why on earth, I ever think of giving up? Iwant to be a doctor and take masters in psychology and get married, have kids and have my own house in Ireland and travel around the world !!!!!!!!!! DUDE I HAVE A LOT OF PLANS AND SHOULD NEVER GIVE UP AND STOP MAKING THOSE STUPID LITTLE THINGS RUINED MY DAY!!!!! that's the spirit?
Let go and let God.
"The beginning is always the hardest", "It's just the beginning, this isn't the end"
Therefore, I thank you. For keeping me sane.
All I can think about now is, to be home, home, home and to be closed with someone I love, with ma, abah, and my family and L. I want to feel neutral again. gitew.
anyway,
I hope your days and weeks were okay.
I'll be home soon.
take care
x
