But once I decided to not care, then, I'll be so numb that you can't even make me feel to care again. I'll be "ah biarlah" . Because I am a human. I have feelings. At some point I will burst. Everything will pour out and nothing's left for your side. I will be numb.
Just a reminder for people who thinks that I am all okay if diorang pijak I sesuka hati. So far takda lah kot. kot. Just reminding. Though the first and second paragraph do not point out on anyone. Just saying.
And I realize, the less I care about the things that worries me (mostly because I worry to much) (yes my plate are piled up with worriness) (oh yes I am a mess) (habislaaaaaaah), the more I feel... ease? I know it's weird but it's true. Because sometimes, there are things you do not have to worry about. There are things you SHOULD NOT even have to worry about and should noooot ever ever ever be in your head and instead just let it be.
They always remind me "buat baik berpada-pada lah Aina", "jangan baik sangat" and I told myself to not be too 'lurus'. Am i a fool or just being too kind? am i being too kind? Do they deserve my kindness even though sometimes some people treat me like shit? Am I a fool for being too kind? Not that I angkat bakul sendiri. I honestly do not think that I am kind. I just give some act of humanity to other people. Because as I grow up, I found that not all humans are as kind as i thought. Some of them are nasty and treat others... well.. harshly. hating each other. fights. this and that. treat others like a freaking immoral person. dude, ni dah kurun keberapa dah. mana morals. minda terbuka sikit. duk sempit je bawah tempurung tu. ugh. And I buat baik because I don't want to be another person yang buat hidup seseorang tu lagi sedih or down, sebab hidup dia asyik kena marah, bullied, maki and etc. . Do you get what I'm trying to say?
We do not know those strangers sangat (duh nama pun strangers), so we do not know their backgrounds and their problems. So, let's just not add up their problems/ sadness/ feeling more horrible in their life can we?Tak kisah lah sesiapa. Be kind to them. Little change can make a big difference. Peace. gitew kau.
Being kind is ok. Of course. be kind to everyone because kindness is the greatest legacy that you can give to anyone when you're no longer on this world. It's like you left footprints in one's life. But all and all it's about your intentions actually.
Eh dah simpang mana I masuk ni...? Nay. Takpa. But you get my point kan ?
Well that's just my point of view lah. And about how I feel.
I scrolled my timeline in Twitter the other day and all I could do is *facepalm* haih. That's all I can say. Fikirlah sendiri why e.e
I'll be back. insyaallah.
still here. breathing.
wonder why my friend's friend cakap matriks takda life. ado jo. and please don't bandingkan your place of study dengan sesiapa. tak kisah lah matriks ke uitm ke apa-apa ke. because not all people are as fortunate as you. And rezeki masing-masing. Ada bahagian masing-masing. Kalau that's your rezeki tempat lebih baik dari your freind, then, that's good alhamdulillah, boast all you want pasal your uni/ college but don't ever downgrad other's. Ingat. Rezeki masing-masing, He is the best planner kan? percaya tu. Kau usaha, buat terbaik, tawakkal.
hm okay.
tertype banyak pula.
I love youuuuu c:♡
