Hello and assalamualaikum.
I am so sad -partly jealous- that my best friend can get a better friend than me u.u I mean, yeah, aku dah tak duduk KL and at least you can text with me :\ It's okay. You know, we have to move on. And sometimes people change their minds and we can't do anything about it. It's neither of our faults. Maybe mine?
To find a perfect friend or should I say soul-mate is hard. Well, I've never had a truly best friend before. When I was younger, I thought best friends are the person who goes to school with us, sit next to us and you can have a best friend in a year -.- DAMN. I was so confused that time. So, now I know, best friend/ soul mate aren't like that.
Best friend/ soul-mate are like, he/ she always there for you, even when you have hard times or good times, he/ she always support you, he/she never left you when you are in crowd and no one wanna talk with you, he/she understands you, he/she never take you for granted and most of all he/ she trust you. TRUST you whatever you do.
I never had a friend like that before. Maybe because I'm afraid to be friend with everyone. Because of my appearance. Do you know that feeling when people said that you're cute, beautiful, gorgeous, but your head keeps denying it? and you always felt like you are insecure and always make sure your hair aren't messy all the time and you hands keep adjusting your hair when you're walking, window-shopping and all that? I do. I do that. I am lack of confident. LACK OF SELF CONFIDENT.
That's why I hate making new friends, I hate talking with people I'm not comfortable with. I always mess up things. Like, when you are trying you talk something and people just ignore what you said. Or or when you are trying to give out ideas or anything they keep ignoring. Well, at least say "I think you idea might be used in another time. But, I think it's great tho" right?
Well, I just keep wonder when can I stop all this LACK OF SELF CONFIDENT issue? I'm tired of being a girl who always have lack of self confident.
So, girls out there,
please belief that you're beautiful, all the time~
xxx
Aina
