I improved a lot in communicating with people this year. It's great but it makes me uncomfortable. This is not me. I'm not being myself. Why do I have to sacrifice myself to please others? I shouldn't. now I want to get myself back. 

Semester 2 has a lot of downs than ups. And I am beginning to get scared. I have a lot of things to catch up because I've been absent, physically and mostly mentally, for almost 3 weeks. As much as i want to give up, I remember that I am the one who started this game so I'm not gonna quit. Because I am not a quitter. Only that I think I need to pause this game for awhile. to take a break. i am not quitting, i am just pausing this game. 

Now I am on my semester break which will end tomorrow. I still need to catch up. I can do this. 

I don't want to see my counselor ever again. The stigma is still there, i forgot. even dekat professionals. Who am I kiding?

well, I'm tired. not functioning very well right now. so, until then.

xo

these are some stuff i did:

Always,

Nienna